Starting a Scholarshop foundation in Mari’s honor.
To find out more about the foundation I plan to start, please click on the page at the top of the website titled "Scholarship". If you would like to donate to this cause, please click the donate button.
I have included a meter to show the progress we are making towards one full scholarship. To find out more details, please see the "Scholarship" page at the top of the website.
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on December 30th, 2009%
Angels are from heaven, We already know. But where are they at, Only God knows.
Sometimes they hide And do miracles so great, But sometimes their Right there in plain sight.
How can we tell An angel is beside us? Look for the goodness And innocence all around.
It may surprise you to find out that each one of us has our own, One that is there guiding And protecting us all day long.
No it is no one you would suspect Or even think of; However, to know they are all around Can give us all a . . . → Click Here To Read More: Did you know that Angels are among us?
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on December 22nd, 2009%
It is a beautiful day by anyone’s account. The date is July 22, 2008. The sky is crystal clear and Caribbean blue. It is around 80 degrees and only getting hotter by the hour. A typical summer day in Chicago. The day has one vital flaw: It is the day I will bury my one and only child.
Her name is Mariana (Mar-ē-awe-na). She was 8½ years old when she left this earth on July 16th. I guess if you are getting ready to permanently say good-bye to the one person who has completely occupied . . . → Click Here To Read More: HER FINAL DAY
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on December 17th, 2009%
T’is the season of joy, happiness & love, or at least that is how it used to be.Love, Mommy
Last year, what would have been our first Christmas without Mari, we got to escape and go to Hawaii. I did not have to deal with the glaring reality of Mari not being here.
Now this year has come. It is technically our 2nd Christmas season. But the reality is so different. This is like it is our first one without her instead.
It feels like ever since Thanksgiving Day I have been just getting by. Almost . . . → Click Here To Read More: Contemplating Christmas
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on December 17th, 2009%
I sit here thinking of the one not here, the one not far from my mind but ever present.
The one has a mind like no one can fathom, a mind all one’s own with no care in the world.
The mind can do wondrous things, to help us to cope or simply get by.
However, the mind of the one is all unique and blessed, the one knows no wrong or gets scared of the rest.
The one’s fears are only in the head of the one’s dreams, for this person may have seemed to be unreal to those . . . → Click Here To Read More: The One
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on December 16th, 2009%
You know, I can sit here all month long and seem to be just fine. Then the 15th comes and something just seems to be just plain flat off. I can’t seem to put my finger on it but it is just off. Then at some point during the day (or night) I realize the next day is the 16th.
Yesterday that happened to me again. The last 2 or 3 months I have been doing that. I cannot seem to figure out why I can’t focus and then I realize the 16th was the next . . . → Click Here To Read More: Bad Days They Come and Go
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on November 26th, 2009%
Thanksgiving is a day where families and loved ones come together to spend time with one another. It’s a day I do not look forward to.
I used to love this time of year. When anyone first arrives, everyone wishes them a Happy Thanksgiving. Most are genuine while some it’s just what you are supposed to say this day. Like last year, I will nod my head in acknowledgement but I won’t say it back. I feel that saying “it” would be ungenuine on my part and why say something you really don’t mean. Please don’t get me wrong. I . . . → Click Here To Read More: Thanksgiving
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on November 25th, 2009%
T’was the night before our lives changed, forever in our house,No one could have known, not even a mouse.For our hopes hung in the balance with all human care,In the hopes that our prayers would be answered right there.
The people who loved her went off to their beds,While they laid there and slept or prayed in their heads.And daddy had his hope, and mommy had her fears,Because the next morning might bring about our tears.
We arose the next morning to hear so much clatter,As we were not sure what was the matter.We flew to her side in such . . . → Click Here To Read More: T'was the Night Before Our Lives Changed
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on October 29th, 2009%
The sudden darkness that hit her was like an overwhelming force of nature and seemed to envelope her all at once. Suddenly off in the distance there appeared what looked like a speck of light. It drew her in as if calling her by name saying, “Ariella, follow the light. It will guide you on your new path.” So she did. As she went, she soared through the air like a majestic eagle.
The light grew bright and more vivid as she drew near. It started to reveal what looked like a giant white door with . . . → Click Here To Read More: The Unexpected Journey
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on September 27th, 2009%
Mariana is my 8½ year old little angel who may be as misunderstood as how her name is pronounced. Her name is not Mary-anne-a but instead Mari‑ē‑an‑na. For short, everyone calls her Mari. She may have a shortened nickname but she is anything but short on personality. She can walk into a room and bring life to a stagnant crowd. The energy she exudes brings those around her back to a child like state. I often say, “If we could bottle up all her energy we might be able to light up an entire city.” . . . → Click Here To Read More: Mariana: A Personality Exuded
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on September 12th, 2009%
As I sit here, I am readily thinking of Mari this morning. I sit here with a smile on my face at how that little angel could uplift the lives of so many while at the same time I have a dog at my feet just whining to get up on my lap and have some attention.
It amazes me sometimes at how much my life has now changed from over a year ago. I was a stay at home mom taking care of a severely autistic child. My life was almost all consuming with making sure Mari . . . → Click Here To Read More: Justing Sitting Here…
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on September 10th, 2009%
I was just sitting here tonight thinking about Mari. Keith and I went to a new grief support group specifically for parents who have lost a child they were still raising, so the child they lost are under 18 for the most part.
It was nice to go to a group that for the first time truly understood what it was like to lose a child well before their time. Most of the children seemed to have died from a disease like cancer or a sudden death. Mari’s is still hard for me to classify as it was . . . → Click Here To Read More: Thinking about Mari
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on September 6th, 2009%
It seems as though time continues to trek on. Time is a never ending cycle of both grief and happiness all rolled up into one.
A little over a year ago I lost the one thing most precious to me and that was my baby girl Mariana. Mari is always thought about and is always missed. For anyone who was fortunate enough to meet her their lives were forever imprinted and changed to have known her. She had such a special spirit about her. She had an infectious laugh where sometimes she would just start laughing and you . . . → Click Here To Read More: Time Keeps on Treking
When we think of 4th of July, we think of celebrations and get togethers.
Get togethers with family. Get togethers with friends. Get togethers with co-workers. Get togethers with strangers.
It is a time of celebrations and fun. A time to enjoy each others company. A time to reminisce with those you have not seen in a while. A time to enjoy the fireworks and festivities. A time to enjoy parades. A time to enjoy the children’s faces light up over seeing the fireworks show or writing their name out with their sparkler. To put it simply, it . . . → Click Here To Read More: When We Think of 4th of July
Life’s been a fog, a fuzzy, sad haze As one year has come, a moment we dread What in life can bring so much sadness With lots of tears and feeling so empty
It’s a mother’s love and the loss of her child The one that she bore and then buried 8 short years later When her child was born, she had so much hope Her child became part of her everything, making her life finally complete
Yet the child had autism, which changes her hopes and dreams They included so many things, but a mother’s love is one strong . . . → Click Here To Read More: A Mother’s Love Never Fades
We are now approaching 11 months that Mari has been gone. June 16th will be exactly 11 months. Whether we want it to or not time just continues to carry on.
I was going through this site a little while ago and realized that I had not posted anything new since Mother’s day. It has been hard this last month and I know as the day approaches the 1 year mark it will just continue to get harder. Then I was reading the comment that someone wrote annonomously. What the person said was basically that I sound depressed and that . . . → Click Here To Read More: Approaching 11 months…
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