Comments on: When life throws you a curve ball (man, all I wanted was a fast one :) )

By: Mommy's Angel In Heaven

Mommy's Angel In Heaven — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 17:31:23 +0000

Sylvia, thank you so much. Please see today’s post. Love ya.

By: Sylvia

Sylvia — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 12:06:19 +0000

I had the same experience when the monthly anniversaries of our son’s death would come. February 13 still brings the same emotions you are describing even many years later, and I waver between talking about the feelings and hiding them. When the feelings do come out, I discover that my husband has had the same thoughts – but like you and Keith, we do not talk often about our son… It has been many years for us, but a parent’s heart is connected in some way to the day their child leaves them, and somehow, even if it is only in our prayers and conversation with God, we need to talk about those feelings on the special anniversaries. Like you, I have felt unrest in the days coming up to the anniversary, but I am praying for you to continue to find God’s special comfort as He wraps His arms around you. Only He can fully understand your feelings – He felt grief too, when His only Son died! Kris, you and Keith continue in my prayers daily. He is using this website to help others through their grief! May God bless you and give you strength!

By: Mommy's Angel In Heaven

Mommy's Angel In Heaven — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 03:11:11 +0000

Julie, let me first start off by simply saying thank you. Reading your comment meant so much to me. I can remember the very first time I had all of these thoughts going through my mind a few months after her passing. They just kept rolling around and around and then a thought came into my mind that my mom had been suggesting for severl years to write down my feelings on paper like a journal. I didn’t write them down on paper but I did bring out my computer and open of Word and started to type.

That very first entry I have on this site back in October 08, the first half were all the thoughts. When you get to the second half of the entry it was in response to what a friend told me after I read to her what I wrote. It was shortly after I had finished that first writing that I decided to start a dedication site to Mariana and I would post pictures of her, the few movies that I had, and then I would write how Keith and I were making it through this process. Obviously, this is a one sided view of our grief journey together, but that is ok.

For me, this site has meant so much as I am able to share the journey process we are going through with people like you. Some of you I know and there are many that I don’t.

I don’t know if you remember much about me from high school, but English was not my forte. I barely struggle through but did ok in the end. Now all these years later when I hear how people actually think my writing is good, it truly touches me in a way that I never new possible. And what is amazing about all of this is it would have never happened if I hadn’t needed an outlet to help me with my grief journey with the loss of my beloved baby girl.

Again, Julie I want to say thank you for you heartfelt comment and to let you know how much it truly has meant to me.

By: Julie

Julie — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 02:55:46 +0000

I love reading your writing when you do these
honest, real life pieces. You’re so down to
earth and easy to relate to. The continuing
story of Mari and how you two are dealing
with her being gone is really a unique and
rich experience that you are doing an
amazing job of sharing with everyone.