As most of you know, and those of you who are new and don’t, I have moving my website to a new server and creating a new site for better utilization and personalization.  In doing this, I have been going through each and every post I have ever posted and reorganizing everything.  I am better organizing categories to help people find a post they might be interested in.  I have now included tags for every post.  So far I am to the end of the year 2008.  I still have all of 2009 and what has been written . . . → Click Here To Read More: How quickly time flies before we realize…]]>

As most of you know, and those of you who are new and don’t, I have moving my website to a new server and creating a new site for better utilization and personalization.  In doing this, I have been going through each and every post I have ever posted and reorganizing everything.  I am better organizing categories to help people find a post they might be interested in.  I have now included tags for every post.  So far I am to the end of the year 2008.  I still have all of 2009 and what has been written this year.

In doing this I ran accross one of my posts.  In a way it is a strange coincidence because I have a song that I have been wanting to write about and then post and it relates directly to this post I wrote over a year and a half ago.  Because I have been thinking about this recently, I am reposting what I wrote before and I have added the lyrics to the song I have been thinking about as well as a YouTube video to the song itself.  If nothing else, I hope this song will stop and make you think about how short life really is and how we only have so much time on this earth.  I originally wrote this post back on December 27, 2008.

I think about how time can be more precious than most really think about or even care to think about. Because if we think about how precious time really is we then begin to realize that it is not infinite. We only have a limited amount of time, each and everyone of us, here on this earth. When our time is up, it is up. There is no amount of begging or pleading that can keep us here or those that we love.

I can remember sitting in the hospital at the beginning of her getting sick and just thinking I hope she gets better soon. That lasted about 2 days. Then to watch our daughter go downhill as quickly as she did, it went from hoping she gets better, to I hope she just makes it through this and she is still alive.

Most of the days were incredibly difficult, but three days in particular were the worst. The first day was the day we found out she had had a stroke. No, she did not die, but she had a stroke at the age of eight. That did not even remotely seem possible. The second day would be the day I watched my daughter crashing in front of me due to a cerebral hemorrhage. At the time I did not even know what that was but I will never forget these 6 words, “Get a crash cart, she’s coding.” I think they are permanently tattooed in my head. The final, most difficult day of all was when we were told the little girl we had before no longer existed. That we basically had the shell of Mari left and she would never come back to us. That was the day we had to make a decision that would change our lives forever. To make a decision to permanently let your own child go is unthinkable and yet we had to do it this day. I mean, how could this be that just two weeks prior she was laughing, and dancing, and singing, and just being Mari to how letting her go permanently to never see her again. It’s inconceivable but the reality of it is we were having to make that decision anyway.

That age old saying of how “that won’t happen to me” or “that could never happen to me” got completely blown out of the water. It can happen to anyone. Those that it doesn’t happen to are just the lucky ones because if it does happen to you, then you know just how unlucky you really are as you have to deal with the loss for the rest of your life.

Please just remember time is precious. We all seem to get to the point where we take time for granted until something like this happens and then we live each day knowing that at any moment things could change. My hope is those that read this will be inspired to change the way they look at life and know that at any moment their lives can change either in a positive or a negative way and to just live each day to the fullest.

Here is the song I was talking about earlier.  Music and Lyrics by the group SuperChick.

“We Live”

There’s a cross on the side of the road
Where a mother lost a son
How could she know that the morning he left
Would be the last time she’d trade with him for a little more time
So she could say she loved him one last time
And hold him tight
But with life we never know
When we’re coming up to the end of the road
So what do we do then
With tragedy around the bend?

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

There’s a man who waits for the tests
To see if the cancer has spread yet
And now he asks, “So why did I wait to live till it was time to die?”
If I could have the time back how I’d live
Life is such a gift
So how does the story end?
Well this is your story and it all depends
So don’t let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

Waking up to another dark morning
People are mourning
The weather in life outside is storming
But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway?
To get our heads up out of the darkness
And spark this new mindset and start to live life cuz it ain’t gone yet
And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
And wake up and live the life we’re supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

(repeat chorus 4 times)

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I am sure you all can imagine that Mari is never really far from my mind.  Today is no different.

Most of you know by now that I have started working out again.  I set my alarm for 5am this morning (yeah, that is the correct time) so I could be to the gym by 6:30am for my very first personal training session.  My personal trainer is Jennifer.  Man she kicked my booty this morning.  So much so that she cut our session 7 minutes early as my body was completely worn out (man am I out of . . . → Click Here To Read More: It Happens At the Strangest Time]]>

I am sure you all can imagine that Mari is never really far from my mind.  Today is no different.

Most of you know by now that I have started working out again.  I set my alarm for 5am this morning (yeah, that is the correct time) so I could be to the gym by 6:30am for my very first personal training session.  My personal trainer is Jennifer.  Man she kicked my booty this morning.  So much so that she cut our session 7 minutes early as my body was completely worn out (man am I out of shape).

I was so sore after our session this morning.  I then headed over to Wal-Mart and I pick up a heart beat session.  It is one that is both a wrist watch type along with having a chest strap.  It is pretty neat.

I was home by around 9am this morning.  Keith was still in bed so I decided to go back to bed for a little while as I was completely worn out.

Later this afternoon around 5pm we went back to the gym.  Keith had not worked out yet today so he needed to get his in too.  Because my thighs were so tight from this morning’s workout I decided to get on the elliptical to see if it will help me with the soreness I was feeling.

The first few minutes I was not sure if I was going to be able to finish or not.  But I stuck with it.

I have an iPhone and I have a lot of my music on the iPod on my phone.  I put a playlist on when I started and just listened to the music as I was striding along.

Well, a song came on and I was really listening to the words.  You know what I mean.  It is not like you don’t know the song and you have probably listened to the song a hundred times or more but this time I was really listening to the words.  The song I was listening too was Steven Curtis Chapman’s song called “Beauty Will Rise.”  It really made me stop and think about my beloved Mari as this man truly knows what it is like to lose your own precious child as his own beloved Maria passed away only a month and a half before Mari on May 21, 2008.

It is amazing at how quickly one’s life can change.  In just an instant Steven’s life changed just as mine did within two weeks and two days.

This is a man whom I have admired for quite some time for the beautiful music he has put out since I was in high school.  It has such meaning behind each and every song he has written.

His last album is basically a compilation of song either about his beautiful little angel now in heaven or how he has gotten through this terrible time.  Unfortunately I can say I know how it feels and what has been going through these last two years.  (It amazes me how it has already almost been two years since Mari left this earth for heaven.)

Going back to the song I was talking about earlier, “Beauty Will Rise,” as this song is so beautiful and truly helps you to understand why the sadness and loss can hit you at the strangest times, I want to share the lyrics to this beautiful song with you: 

It was the day the world went wrong
I screamed till my voice was gone
And watched through the tears as everything came crashing down
Slowly panic turns to pain
As we awake to what remains
And sift through the ashes that are left behind
But buried deep beneath
All our broken dreams we have this hope

Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes
Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
For we know joy is coming in the morning
In the morning
Beauty will rise

So take another breath for now
And let the tears come washing down
And if you can’t believe, I will believe for you
Cause I have seen the signs of spring
Just watch and see

Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes
Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
For we know joy is coming in the morning
In the morning

I can hear it in the distance
And it’s not too far away
It’s the music and the laughter
Of a wedding and a feast
I can almost feel the hand of God
Reaching for my face to wipe the tears away
You say it’s time to make everything new
Make it all new
This is our hope
This is a promise
This is our hope
This is a promise

It will take our breath away
To see the beauty that’s been made
Out of the ashes, out of the ashes

It will take our breath away
To see the beauty that He’s made
Out of the ashes, out of the ashes

Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes
Out of this darkness
New light will shine
And we’ll know the joy that’s coming in the morning, in the morning

Beauty will rise
Beauty will rise
Beauty will rise
Beauty will rise
Beauty will rise

Words & music by Steven Curtis Chapman

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Casting Crowns is one of my favorite groups if not my favorite. What I like about this group is their words. They are not afraid to tell it like it is. When my daughter passed away this past summer I had someone from our church sing this song. It was how we closed out her funeral service. This song says so much as to how Keith and I are feeling right now and will probably feel for some time to come. I hope these words mean as much to you as . . . → Click Here To Read More: Praise You In This Storm]]>

Casting Crowns is one of my favorite groups if not my favorite. What I like about this group is their words. They are not afraid to tell it like it is.

When my daughter passed away this past summer I had someone from our church sing this song. It was how we closed out her funeral service. This song says so much as to how Keith and I are feeling right now and will probably feel for some time to come. I hope these words mean as much to you as they have for us. I have also include a video I found that is below the lyrics.

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm 

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You 

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away 

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm 

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth 

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm 

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