Starting a Scholarshop foundation in Mari’s honor.
To find out more about the foundation I plan to start, please click on the page at the top of the website titled "Scholarship". If you would like to donate to this cause, please click the donate button.
I have included a meter to show the progress we are making towards one full scholarship. To find out more details, please see the "Scholarship" page at the top of the website.
Why do people have to be so uncaring and mean sometimes?
For those of you who don’t know (which is probably most of you), I have been having severe hip pain that can go clear down into my knees and sometimes other places in my legs. I have been unable to stay at work for a full day, except for one day, since two weeks ago last Friday. I hurt at home quite often. I simply sit in my recliner all day. I don’t go out and go shopping any more. I can’t take the kids to their baseball practices . . . → Click Here To Read More: Having Pain…
I want to start off by telling everyone I am still here even though I have not written a little while. I have started a new job and trying to do some other things.
I know many of you know I have been writing a book about Mari’s life and the grief journey that followed. The book is done. However, here is where the problem lies. I have found an editor that I believe will be perfect for this book. Unfortunately, the price is quite high for me to pay her. I need to raise about $8,000 to have it . . . → Click Here To Read More: A Scholarship Program in Mari’s Honor
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on February 10th, 2011%
Well, today started off as a decent day. I had to be to work at 7am (no fun by the way). Outside was cold but I didn’t realize just how cold. Even when I started my car to warm it up I still didn’t know.
It wasn’t until I got back in my car and heading to work that the temperature gauge in my car showing how cold it was outside at a balmy 3 degrees Fahrenheit outside. When I get to work I park my car on the GM side of Walmart but the doors there were not open . . . → Click Here To Read More: Not again…
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on January 13th, 2011%
I just love it when people completely disregard the rules. NOT!
Keith and I live here in Kentucky. He is stationed at Fort Knox. It is pretty chilly outside right now with our highs around 20 to 30 degrees and the wind chills even colder. You’ve got to love it when things are below freezing (not really lol).
Well, most of you know I work at Walmart by now. Many of you may not know, however, that I have pretty bad asthma and unfortunately for me, my lungs happen to be super sensitive to certain smells like cigarette smoke.
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on January 12th, 2011%
I want to share a passage of the Bible that was recently shown to me:
2 Samuel 12:15-23
15 After Nathan had gone home, the LORD struck the child that Uriah’s wife had borne to David, and he became ill. 16 David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and spent the nights lying in sackcloth[a] on the ground. 17 The elders of his household stood beside him to get him up from the ground, but he refused, and he would not eat any food with them.
18 On the seventh day the child died. . . . → Click Here To Read More: Seeing Mari again
Recently things have been good. I have not been overly sad. I mean, I miss Mari but I am doing good.
I sit here in church again. I am glad we have started going to church on a regular basis. It is important for the two of us and our marriage. My hope is it only makes us stronger and helps us to get through the loss of Mari. I know through God anything can happen.
I know some people might say, “How could you believe in a God who would do this?” My response is God knows more than . . . → Click Here To Read More: Writing through tragedy
I am driving in my car this morning and the roads are kind of nasty from the snow we got yesterday. I finally plug in my iPhone so I can listen to my iPod.
Last night on the way home from work I decided to play Steven Curtis Chapman’s CD “Beauty Will Rise.” This CD was written and created after the tragic death of his youngest daughter Maria. Maria passed away on May 21, 2008, only a little less than 2 months before Mari did. His CD is one of the ways he dealt with his grief. . . . → Click Here To Read More: Missing the imporant moments
Steven Curtis Chapman has a song that talks about “Out of these ashes beauty will rise.” The ashes represent the tragedy his family endured the day their daughter Maria died. The “beauty [that] will rise” is representative of God’s grace and love that even though something as terrible as losing a child, God is still there through it all. He is seeing you through.
I can say I do love this song and the hope it brings. However, my life doesn’t seem to have found the Beauty of it all. I still have yet to feel this hope. I mean, . . . → Click Here To Read More: “Out of these ashes beauty will rise”
The struggles of life, there always seem to be a never ending supply of them. Some of them seem simple and easy to overcome. Some seem out of the ordinary but we learn to deal with them anyway. Then some are simply unbearable and hard to imagine what the light at the end of the tunnel even looks like.
That last one is the one that can describe, or at least try to, as to what it’s like for a parent to have lost a child. When it happens, the second it happens, there is no light. It feels like . . . → Click Here To Read More: The struggles of life…
It’s always interesting to meet someone new. You don’t know what type of person s/he is. You don’t know what to expect from him/her. You don’t know how s/he will react to different situations. In a way, getting to know this new person is like solving a mystery. Will you like this person? Do you have the same ideals? Do you have the same beliefs? And the list just goes on and on. Ultimately, curiosity kills the cat and we must find out more about this person. Do you want to get to know this person more? Do you want . . . → Click Here To Read More: Meeting Someone New
Sylvia, I want you to know how much of a dear friend you have become to me. I mean, don’t get me wrong, you were such a help to Keith and I when we were still living in DeKalb. Every Sunday morning you enabled us to be able to attend church service while you were taking care of our beloved angel during children’s church. You enabled her to participate and be around other kids her own age. You have such a gift and you were a God send as you have the speech background that could ultimately help in ways . . . → Click Here To Read More: Julie and Sylvia
A friend of mine told me she comes to this website everyday to see what I have posted and is disappointed when there isn’t anything. I am going to try something new. I want to try to post at least one thing a day just to let you all know how I am doing. Sometimes I will just tell you how my day went and other times I will write out something like I usually post. I hope everyone will like this. Please keep your comments coming as I love to hear feedback from those who care . . . → Click Here To Read More: Comments and Feedback
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on February 21st, 2009%
Today is a day of wonder and confusion. Earlier this week Keith and I had another tragedy happen in our lives. If you have been on Facebook, and you are one of my “friends” on there, then you know what has happened.
The tragedies started 8 months ago and ended on Mari’s 8 month mark of being gone (February 16). In the past 8 months, we have lost Mari, we found out a little over a month ago that Keith’s dad has prostate cancer and then at the end of last month that it is moderately aggressive . . . → Click Here To Read More: Wonder and Confusion For What Life Brings Us
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on February 8th, 2009%
I sit here tonight doing some research for my Biology class. I am supposed to turn in six articles throughout the semester. The articles are supposed to be related to biology somehow. I found a website dedicated to biology a couple of weeks ago. The site publishes several articles every single week. I had printed off several of them so I would be ready when I had to turn them in. But tonight I decided to do some research on topics that were more interesting to me.
I found several from the first search I did on . . . → Click Here To Read More: Two Weeks and Two Days
By Mommy's Angel In Heaven, on February 4th, 2009%
I sit here just thinking about our beautiful little Mari and how much I miss her. My dog Cody is by my feet playing with my cat Bandit. He is growling while the cat is hissing (believe it or not they are actually playing and DO like each other). While I sit here listening to them I just think of Mari. I think of how much I miss her and wish she was here beside me so I could hear her playing instead of my animals.
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Julie and Sylvia
Sylvia, I want you to know how much of a dear friend you have become to me. I mean, don’t get me wrong, you were such a help to Keith and I when we were still living in DeKalb. Every Sunday morning you enabled us to be able to attend church service while you were taking care of our beloved angel during children’s church. You enabled her to participate and be around other kids her own age. You have such a gift and you were a God send as you have the speech background that could ultimately help in ways . . . → Click Here To Read More: Julie and Sylvia